There’s a warm monkey sitting on my lap
There is a feeling of warmth, something warm and comfortable. I feel a softness, a fur, a warmth that’s comforting in the same way the fetal position under a duvet can make you want to stay in bed for another hour.
It’s embarrassing to admit, but the warmth is my extended belly sitting in a wholesome position on my thighs while I read Sam Manicoms motorcycle adventures while eating breakfast on the toilet.
I’m not sure what is more disturbing.
Eating while reading or the fact I’ve put on weight.
(Could be the toilet and reading thing too.)
I’m hoping Peter is telepathetic and is going to ring and offer to take my passport to either the Uz embassy in London, or the Taj embassy in Austria…I have a preference!
Peter. Yes I mean you! Hello ! I feel as though we have little opportunity to talk but will hold you as a friend nevertheless. One day in years to come we will pick up a conversation as though tomorrow has not been quite the duration away from yesterday as it has been but becomes closer in our minds than the calender shows.
Oh, and I don’t really need the passport thing going on!
I have had some bad news today, the springs from Hagon aren’t going to be here till Tuesday, delivery is getting later and later and the worry is not so much the springs being delivered as how long it will take me to fit them and get it wrong and learn and get it wrong and ask and eventually get them right!
Tony at Hagon has a talent for making bad news palatable! When he told me, I couldn’t fault him. I believe he is trying and being thwarted.
What a great word, thwarted!
Can you imagine a life without the boundaries and fixtures we are held by today. Can you imagine giving up on the values you carry so dear to your heart now that have been instilled within you from not only society and up bringing but also years of descendant indoctrine?
It’s not only this that’s holding you back but you.
You hold yourself in such high esteem and judge your success by the view others hold of you that to succeed in anything that really matters to yourself is to be released from a bondage that holds not your body but your mind.
To be seen to move away from the value that’s placed upon you by others is probably the most difficult desicion to make in life.
It follows you and therefore needs the belief few people can give. It follows every day, we all do it, we call different lifestyle choices as Pikeys or Hippies not realising that what we are doing is judging the life style choices of others as not acceptable to us because of the life we expect and not the life we believe but because of the life we endure.
I’m hoping to go and learn that I shouldn’t judge.
I have no reason to endure. Life shouldn’t be endured as much as enjoyed. Three letters that make more difference than any amount of positive thinking.
Gradually, I’ll leave behind with every mile moving from what we might have to endure, to a riasing of my smiles to what I hope to simply enjoy.
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