Can you?
I have lost Faith, I cant deny it, but there is also something else going on.
It’s as though Christmas or your Birthday is here, unwrap a present, and find another layer, strip back the postman stare and the black and white cat, pull away the newspaper tear and there at the back of my mind I’m thinking Faith is still there, I believe everything will work.
And if only 50 % works, Its 50% more than anyone else around me.
What is interesting is the more I think about things the closer I get to a realisation that…oh my god Im turning soft!
It’s all about love also.
I’m feeling unloved I feel as though I’m not sharing my love.
People need people dont they? As much as they pretend they dont, they do.
We need to talk, to discuss to look into each others eyes and feel that we mean something more than then WE believe, but only as much as they trust us to be.
I don’t have that.
It’s a release, realise that your not bound by the ties of others. Breathe a sigh and gain strength, take heart, look forward, look to what you have and could obtain, not material gain but just smiles.
Count the smiles you have and take a guess on how many more are to come.
If it’s not thousands and thousands and thousands and thousands…..then you need to join me to find your future, to find something you can be proud of and that might lead to an adventure thats unspoken by others around because they are too scared to get involved.
There is a lack of discussion. People become afraid when you mention a task like this, afraid in a way that cant be explained but only felt in silencepeople metion appropriate words of encouragement but precious few throw themselves into the world that divorces you from material wealth and career progression. Are these real things, can we feel a tangible asset from them or do we percieve them to be what they are through a value we place upon them?
It’s people that push us forward. Think the thoughts others do not favour. Be unpopular by being positive because through these thoughts we carry with us the rest of humanity that have decided that yesterday was good enough for tomorrow.
For me, every now and then, tomorrow is just not good enough.
Some people have a hard time pulling away from the safety of their current lives.
See you soon - feel the faith and embrace it.
In any way you can.
xxx
Hi Jo
People are incredibly resilient and adaptable its a feature of humanity
Didn’t think I would ever get over my divorce the betrayal was so deep
It created a mental scar. Which never really went away!
You can get used to isolation, living alone just takes time too.
living with loneliness you can get used to.
Quite enjoy it sometimes makes you more independent.
Nice to have company too. people will punctuate your journey like the special places you visit. This will be a rollercoaster ride.
you will love it. You will feel much better when you are doing it.
CAD Monkey